“I gave up as a person.”
You know Taylor Momsen from her legendary performance as Jenny Humphrey in Gossip Girl.
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Momsen is also the lead singer of longtime rock band The Pretty Reckless – and they have just released their newest album, Death By Rock and Roll.
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In a recent interview with Metro UK, Momsen shared how the deaths of two friends – notably Soundgarden singer Chris Cornell and record producer Kato Khandwala – led her to a point where she was “mentally not in a good place to be public to be” . “
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Cornell died of suicide in 2017, while Khandwala died in a motorcycle accident the following year.
“My life felt like it was over and I was going very down to this completely dark hole of depression and substance abuse and I was a mess,” she explained. “I lived in this hole of darkness that I wasn’t sure would ever get out of. “
“I wasn’t sure if I wanted to. I had somehow given up on life. I had given up everything at that point. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to make music again.”
“I had given up as a person. It was very dark.”
Momsen claims that around 2019 she was able to team up with her band and get into the creativity to help how she felt: “It was music that saved me.”
“I know it sounds really clichéd,” she explained, “but it was rock and roll and music that got me out and I finally got to a place where I could start listening to records again.”
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